I’m in an emotional slump. The relentless snow storms are wearing on me. I miss my friends/family/Seattle desperately. I don’t love my job yet (but I am VERY happy to have one). I could go on, but I won’t.
What I think is really going on is that I’ve been planning and moving and adjusting and settling for five months. And now, my world has stopped changing at such a rapid pace and I’m grasping to process it all. I’m doing an awful job of being positive. Even though I have a job that is sort of in my field and an apartment all my own- I’m not happy. I’m annoyed with myself. This is what I wanted and now I’m not happy?! What the heck? I don’t want to be a grumpy-pants that is never happy with my life.
Have any of you felt like this before? What did you change in your life (or your attitude) that made you feel better?
I think that one thing I really need is a social outlet. I’m getting to know people at work, and I’m proud of myself for that, but I think it’s going to be awhile before they transition from co-workers to friends. I just bought a Bikram yoga package which I think will have positive physical and emotional effects, but I’m not sure how many friends I’ll make by stretching and sweating like crazy for 90 minutes. And I’m checking out book clubs- so far nothing seems like the best fit, but I’ll keep looking. I’m really trying to be pro-active, but I’m out of ideas. Any suggestions?
I’m going to practice positivity by ending this post with something that makes me happy: I’ll see Katie this weekend (!) and then Rebecca and Chris will each be visiting in April (!!). I’m also really excited about my new shower curtain. It makes me smile every time I pass by my bathroom.